Drummer's Bleat
Your wife called me
your
father
who also smoked
in his young stupid days
because movie stars and cowboys did
and his parents said it was bad
but smoked constantly in front of him--
sobbing
about your lung cancer diagnosis
because your 52 year old self
is curled up on their couch
refusing to talk to anyone
including
your two sons, the engineer and the artist
who never smoked for some glorious reason
even though most nicotine-raised children almost always do
living
in other towns
they begged you
not to smoke for years and gave up
because you would not
listen
or read the letter we wrote
begging you to quit
because we had seen the ones
before who did not
listen
die in such dirty, x-ray screaming,
gasping, choking ways
made their inevitable demise
worse than it would have been
but now
what can we do
except commiserate with someone we love
cannot turn the clock back one second
because time is all you have
and all you ever had
and it is going to be shorter and worse
by far than it would have been
recalling
what your best friend in your band,
the best drummer in town,
just before he died
lamented
a story we often told you:
It is my fault. It is all my fault.
I did this to myself.
Vern Fein
Vern Fein
Vern Fein is a
career special education teacher who decided to write fiction after he retired,
but wrote a few poems also and now has over seventy poems published in a
variety of venues like *82 Review, The Literary Nest, Bindweed Magazine,
Gyroscope Review, Ibis Head Review, Former People, 500 Miles, and The Write
Launch, and has non-fiction pieces in Quail Bell, The Write Place at the Write
Time, and Adelaide, plus a short story in the online magazine Duende from
Goddard College.
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