Longing

 Longing

 

 

I can't stay in a place for too long

I get attached too easily

And it's harder for me to move on

I remember every moment

I remember all the memories made

And I worry

If I leave

Won't it all fade?

I can hear myself laughing

With all my friends

Listening to songs

Sitting on the terrace

I can see their smile, so wide

That for a brief moment

I don't remember the cause of my worries

I wish to pause these moments for eternity

I wish if we can still remain this happy

I wish that all that seems to slip from my hand can stay for a while

And for a brief moment of my time

I can travel back to this same period of time

And I will keep coming back

Again and again

Does it make sense?

To be so happy, with some people

That you have just met

And I know nothing lasts forever

And everything changes with time

But why is it that my stupid heart seems to be the only exception, every single time?

I too want to move on

I too want to leave

But I am afraid to leave these memories behind

As even when no one is around

I am still there

To come up to the terrace once in a while

And see all these moments like a movie in my head

But I worry once I leave

The atoms will change and I won't breathe the same

The air that witnessed all these cute frames

So here I sit

Reminiscing the past

Wondering if the memories that I remember will last

And there's a deep feeling

A longing for the past.

 

 

Payal Kudesia

 Most of my poems are about the way I feel. But it's not just limited to that, whomever I have shared my work, they can relate to it in one way or another. I hope the readers can understand the pain behind the words, and my poems touch them in a way that heals the part of them that they have not shown to anyone or are afraid to do so. I hope everyone suffering with their mental health can find some comfort through my poetries. I am always open to constructive criticism and feedback.

 Ariel Chart is her first publishing credit.